I studied economics in university. Among other basic tenets, it teaches that specialization is good. Concentrate on doing one thing really well and then trade that thing for other goods and services. This has made our society more efficient. It has also made us softer, more detached and dumber than ever. Sometimes I dream of building my own log cabin in the woods. I’ve been meaning to patch the holes in a favorite old coat so I don’t have to head to the store and buy a new one. I imagine having a garden large enough to feed myself with bushels of fresh food.

For some, this do-it-yourself ambition is a road to freedom. Self-sufficiency means no more dependence on systems that may be unsustainable or somehow corrupted by our modern throwaway society. I applaud people who live by this ethic, but for me, this isn’t the whole picture. I really love the taste of grapefruits from South Africa. My hiking boots were made in Italy and they’re super comfy. There’s much more to this diversification of skills thing than freedom from relying on others.

Think of the connection I’d have to my home after felling, stripping, notching and stacking all the logs that make up its walls. I can’t imagine it would be the same feeling I’d get from a meeting with a real estate agent, mortgage broker and subdivision developer.

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It’s early March and snow is still blanketing the hills of West Virginia. My friend Paula and I rush out of Morgantown like college students on Spring Break, thirsty for the river and freedom. My last meeting of the day ran late and despite my frantic attempts to leave early, we’re behind schedule. It’s mid-afternoon when we reach Rockville Bridge put-in and drop boats and gear under the barbwire fence by the road.

Heater blasting, we bump along rocky dirt roads past farms and barking dogs to the take-out at the confluence of the mighty Cheat and Big Sandy rivers. We pull running shoes over thick socks for the steep two-and-a-half-mile climb out of the gorge. Once at the top we gain momentum for the remaining three miles back to our stowed boats.

It’s 5:00 p.m. when we finally slip into our creek boats on the red sandy shore under the Rockville Bridge. We are both thinking what we are not saying: It’s getting late, maybe we should call this off. The gray sky is tinged with dusk when we push off from shore. We’re paddling hard and fast from the start, negotiating Entrance, Wonder, Zoom Flume and Little Splat without many words—pushing hard to get through the bigger rapids in daylight. We finish the portage around Big Splat in cold, numbing darkness.

The wave trains and boulder gardens below Splat are class III but in darkness they become treacherous and unrecognizable. I bounce off rocks and swing backwards into more rocks. We hug the shoreline, using the calm eddies behind boulders whenever possible. We call out directions above the river’s roar in an effort to stay close without sight.

Blindly, I am swept into an almost fully submerged tree hung between two rocks. For what seems like minutes, I am in a full embrace with the tree—hugging its coarse bark with every ounce of strength. I am rocked in a dangerous slow dance with the water’s surges—my boat rhythmically rising and sucking down in the current beneath the sweeper. I reach for my skirt. My boat and paddle are swept downstream and I am left clinging to the wet trunk, yelling back into the night, “TREE, TREE, TREE!”

We walk from then on, stumbling along rock- and root- laden shorelines—falling, swimming and crawling into darkness. Impossibly, the night grows still blacker and colder.

First Island Rapid leaps out from the darkness. We stand on the flat rocks on river left and can almost see whitewater crashing down the right channel. Finally, we’re near the end. Our spirits renewed, we scale the steep hillside to find an old logging road leading downstream.

Trudging along the rugged trail, beyond physical exhaustion, I beat myself up.

Why didn’t we start earlier, call it off at the put-in, hike out at Big Splat? Why did we let ego and desire trump good judgment and respect for the river?

It’s close to midnight when we see a flash of light and hear the distant voices of the search party.


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